HEY GUUUUYSSS!!! IM BACK AND IM QUITE A THOUSAND PERCENT DIFFERENT.
I have become an incredible optimist.
I have become confident and believe in myself and in my abilities as an artist! i will improve steadily and i have passion for it once again!
I am planning on going to the best college i can get into for Animation.
I stopped drawing for about a year, i had what i call an Art Attack, which is the most extreme version of art block. i lost faith in myself and i was too hard on myself and i lost my confidence and my direction. But i figured out that what made jesus, hitler, dr. martin king luther jr. etc. so successful, is that they believed in what they believed in and they believed in themselves, and through this strong belief they were able to accomplish great success's (success is knowing what you want and you obtaining whatever that it may be).
I am very social at school and alot of people look up to me, which is awesome because i am openly gay and it doesnt even matter to my entire school! they all treat me like the normal guy that i am.
I have become very fit and active which is something i am proud of, i am stronger than most straight guys i know which is awesome just because its breaking stereotypes. (i guess, idk i have alot of pride in it)
I have become a far less ignorant individual, i love life and all of the life within it. i hate corporations and conservative bigots in politics, or just bigots in general.
i am a very spiritual person i believe in Reason, Karma, but no religion on earth, for none of them could ever be true.
I am in love with nature too! me and my best friends go to the graveyard and forest on a nearly daily basis.
i have become incredibly close to my best friends as well. i am proud to say that i love each and every one of them, we all work very hard to have each others backs, always, without each other we would have all been dead by now. which i am incredibly serious about, depression is a cancer like mentality that will eat at who you are until you have lost yourself. i was lost for the past year and now i have fully broken free of depression, and its pessimistic viewpoints, i have become quite an optimist and i wake up every morning with the thought "today is a new day, im excited to see whats in store for me, and today is going to be the best day ever" i wake up and say know that every day is going to be the best day ever because i said so. its incredibly simple, there is no person no thing that could take me down. (unless its a death or attempted suicide by someone i know). i can not stress how short life is, and no matter what life goes on, and you can choose to spend your entire life with a negative attitude, or you can choose to have a positive happy attitude and be the character you want to be. it takes work but i am slowly becoming the exact person i want to be. The funny thing is, all of this happiness that i have, any one reading this can have as well. it all starts at the decision and self control and positivity and being happy with the present, for it is the greatest gift.
Last i am a firm believer that life is exactly what you make it. You can choose to have a great life or an okish one. you choose literally everything, fuckin, if you wanted to move out of your house right now to another country or state, who is going to stop you? like you are in so much control of your life some things just take alot of practice, other things come naturally. invest in who you are, let everyone know exactly who you are, and do what makes you happy, do what you want to do. dont let society pull you in, a true man goes against society, and comes out successful. or something like that, an american poet of the enlish romantics said that, but its true.